Sleepy Mode

No mood to work. No mood to talk. No mood to read books or watch movies.

If i have a wish right now, i hope i can sleep on a very comfortable bed. If i have a 2nd wish, i hope u can sleep with me.

Yesterday received a wedding invitation from my secondary school friend, i m happy for her. Her outlook, frankly speaking, is "below mean" and dont have much character. Some of my friends who look better than her, more lovely than her still have no boy friends. Is that relate to fate? luck? character?

After received her invitation i remember one of my secondary school friends also get married in Jan. I call her today & ask her when is the exact date. She said, 'The wedding was cancelled la". I m not dare to ask further.....must be sth bad happen and it's working hour now, i dont want to affect her mood. I said let's go out for dinner later and hanged up the phone. This friend is more close with me, we walked to school every morning since F.4. We contact less after we go to university and go to work......i m not dare to ask her directly what had happened. May be i should ask other secondary school friends, then i will write her an e-mail....we still keep forwarding e-mails to each other.

Regret?

印度有一位名哲學家，天生一股特殊的文人氣質，不知迷死了多少女人。 某天，一個女子來敲他的門，她說：「讓我作你的妻子吧！錯過我，你將再也找不到 比我更愛你的女人了！」 哲學家雖然也很中意她，但仍回答說：「讓我考慮考慮！」 事後，哲學家用他一貫研究學問的精神，將結婚和不結婚的好、壞所在，分別條列下來，才發現，好壞均等，真不知該如何抉擇？於是，他陷入長期的苦惱之中，無論他又找出 了什麼新的理由，都只是徒增選擇的困難。 最後，他得出一個結論──人若在面臨抉擇而無法取捨的時候，應該選擇自己尚未經 驗過的那一個。不結婚的處境我是清楚的，但結婚會是個怎樣的情況，我還不知道.對！我該答應那個女人的央求。 哲學家來到女人的家中，問女人的父親說：「你的女兒呢？請你告訴她，我考慮清楚 了，我決定娶她為妻！」 女人的父親冷漠地回答：「你來晚了十年，我女兒現在已經是三個孩子的媽了！」哲學家聽了，整個人幾乎崩潰，他萬萬沒有想到，向來自以為傲的哲學頭腦，最後換來的竟然是一場悔恨。爾後二年，哲學家抑鬱成疾，臨死前，將自己所有的著作丟入火堆，只留下一段對人生的註解── 如果將人生一分為二，前半段的人生哲學是「不猶豫」，後半段的人生哲學是「不後悔」 沒有在最喜歡的時候上身的衣服，沒有在最可口的時候品嚐的蛋糕，就像沒有在最想做的時候去做的事情，都是遺憾。 生命也有保存期限，想做的事該趁早去做。 如果你只是把你的心願鄭重的供奉在心裡，卻未曾去實行，那麼唯一的結果就是與它錯過，一如那件過時的衣服，一如那塊過期的蛋糕。

Read the above article long time ago and got a different feeling today. Look back my life in the past 28 years….I have loved the wrong person, I had bad experience…..but I don’t regret.

紅樓夢

縱使舉案齊眉, 到底意難平

Lost

we met in mongkok station lah, we walked to netvigator building. u push me to cross the road faster so that i wouldn't be crash by the car. and then we walked back to have siu lung bao, on the way, we went to book shop. we read the wyman book, we look at the gay write for girl and les write for guy book. and then we kiss at the stairs. and then we went to have siu lung bao.. the man were surprised that we only have siu lung bao, i was afraid that u would fell down the stair sitting there. then u wiped ur dirtymouth with ur hand. and then we left lah, we went to the small basement mall, selling dvd, u put ur hand on my neck. and then we went to hagen daz ate ice cream, we went to the bridge, and then we kissed lah...we held hands going down the stairs and i took the minibus home....

above are what we have done on Dec 16, 2004. I think only u and me will find it interesting to read.

Sat planning

My sat plan:

AM
9:30 Wake up
11:30 Facial


PM
1:00 Buy new shoes
2:30 Visit mum & give her money
3:00 Go to Comic shop & Supermarket
4:00 Watch "Before Sunrise"
5:00 Vacuum cleaning, wash clothes, organize personal stuff, iron clothes, fix clothes for
Stephen
7:00 Cook
8:00 Upload photos to Yahoo photo Album, check wedding photos
9:00 Filing bills & prepare monthly budget
10:00 Shower
10:30 zzzzzzzzzzz....................

When i think of u

When i think of u, i touch myself

When i touch myself, i think of u

10 things i hate most

Inspired by the topic of my 10 favorites things, let's write down 10 things i hate most:

1. Data Entry
2. All kinds of animals, insects....especially fishes
3. Gamble e.g. mahjong, horse racing
4. Mathematics
5. Wait
6. Junk mails
7. Rainy days
8. Pay bills (expecially credit card bills)
9. Duran
10. Wash hair 6:00a.m. in the morning (This is the thing i hate most bcos i hate to wake up early when the sky still dark and hate to wash hair - bcos of my long & troublesome hair)

I wrote 2 diaries today, so i dont have to write any for tomorrow :)

Writing diaries

I asked myself, what it the purpose of writing diaries....what i want to acheive.

I used to write diaries when i was young. At that time i loved my classmates secretly. I can only share my feeling to a few of my close friends. But i cannot talk to my friends always ga ma, so i write lor. Besides, those i think very important, need to write down, may not mean anything special to my friends, e.g. i met him in the corridor, he seems looking at me, seems not, and finally i touch his shirt! (sth like that......)

I think it's bcos of u. U introduce online diaries to me. I want to do the things u do. Like.....we are doing sth together, we are getting close.

I think i should have the habit of writing it every day.....otherwise i will bcom lazy & stop writing ga la. I dont write until now bcos i m so lazy to do the log-in ID application.

I thought of i shall let who to read my diaries......cant think of any. I cannot let them know about u. And i dont want to intentionally avoid u in my diary.....since ur so important to me. So i decide la, this is my private diaries like those after i write i will lock it up in my drawer.

U are my only reader.

My 10 favorite things

1. Potato chips

2. Miffy

3. Stars

4. Milk Tea

5. Chinese Dim Sum

6. Beaches

7. Books

8. Music

9. Evening

10. The crystal ball will snow when u turn it upside down

Love

I just realised that, love is sth cannot really explain.

If you can find the reasons, they are conclusions, not the cause.

Now I have been imprisoned, I have lost the freedom to love someone else. I can no longer fly.

One day, if u dont love me anymore, i will leave.

I may make up my mind to delete all your e-mails, dump all the gifts you gave me.

I will stop myself from calling you.

I will stop myself from seeing you.

But I may not be able to stop myself from loving you.

Someone say time can heal.

But the problem is, you dont know when.

Please love me as long as i love you :)

Stop until i stop loving you :)

很愛很愛

This is one of the songs of Sammi Cheng that i love so much......which is not popular at all.
I cant even find it in karaoke.

很愛很愛
錯過了四月天氣 無法櫻花中共你把臂
忘了上月那齣戲 失綜的相機好吧再等下世紀
錯過了遍地積雪無法一起印下這足印
還會念著那些人手心的氣溫 咀唇記起你親吻
濃濃淡淡昨日記憶也怕忘記 思憶多麼詭秘頃刻可將我殺死
綿綿密密舊日氣息化作空氣
能讓我偶爾呼吸都當作完美(於遠處的你)
輕輕軟軟甜甜蜜蜜你我倘一起 我會很愛你因很愛很愛……

世界會這樣的轉無法好好的做個心算
就算剩下這一串可不可揭穿 一步也可這麼遠

煙花也會停但頭上亦有星願你很愛我 因很愛很愛