Monday, April 28, 2014

我一向避免帶小寶去夜街。除了自己不喜歡,也有點寧可信其有的心態。

那晚從奶奶家晚飯離開,我手抱著小寶,在大堂等電梯。忽然,聽見他說:「姨姨。」我沿著他的目光望去,那是一個空置單位。當時奶奶和H都在。大家沒說什麼,之後也沒和H提過,我相信,有些時候,沉默是必要的。

今天小寶大概知道明天要回婆婆家,不願午睡。我帶他去公園玩吹泡泡,目的當然是讓他盡情放電。吃完晚飯七點多,小寶睡眼惺忪,但又發脾氣不睡。

「叔叔怕怕!」
「什麼叔叔?」
「叔叔有,驚!」同時指著床角。

心寒。偏偏H不在。

我和他祈了禱,餵奶(連沖奶都要我抱)最後總算睡著了。

第二天醒來,他竟指著窗口說叔叔。

H難得的聽見小寶醒了便走來房間,問他是不是指樓下的保安叔叔。

小寶沒答話。我猜他還未知道什麼叫保安。至少我未教過。

其實我不願相信他真的看見叔叔。但又不想像恐怖片裡那些母親,自己看不見就當小孩亂講。當然,我沒放棄過猜想其他的可能性。

一星期過去了。小寶沒病沒痛。除了有晚在媽媽家他又提叔叔,更反常地要婆婆陪睡趕我走之外,再沒其他特別事發生。

希望就此告一段落。

Sunday, April 13, 2014

Marriage

All couples have their own problems, i guess, including my friend who gave me advice earlier.

His problems seem more serious than mine. Mainly because he cares while i kind of accept the reality. (or ignore it?)

I am not saying he's not qualified to give me advice.

What he had said was true. But.....when personal feeling is concerned....

What I am going to say indeed?

When you talk to a friend, sometimes you look for advice or solutions.

Sometimes you look for support.

Sometimes, you know talking wont help much. But end up you might feel better. Sometimes you dont. Then you stop talking. Forget it. Forget the hair, the movie tickets, the reasons......in fact, you can always focus on something else.

Saturday, April 12, 2014

X-Men: First Class

I am not fans of X-men series.

But i like this one. Watched it again at Pearl by chance, it is much better than what i remembered.