Friday, February 4, 2005

The song of tonite: 孤島

孤島
曲:陳綺貞 詞:陳綺貞


你說的每句話 都像是一幅畫
我要把它看個仔細 我要把它想得透徹
看不清你的心 是一片水藍的盡頭
我要撥開層層烏雲 張開在黑暗中的眼睛
我從你的話語之間 才瞭解你和我之間
不需要語言 不需要一字一句
字與字的連結 是你情感的流洩
即使是無聲的停頓 也是最完美的表情
走不近你的心 是一座孤獨的島嶼
放棄了乘著風浪 不漂流在你的四方
我從你的話語之間 才瞭解你和我之間失去了語言
失去了一字一句的空間

I have to OT. So it comes out "The song of tonite". 陳綺貞 again. I want to familiar with all her songs before the concert. U said i shouldnt just post the lyrics on my diary. i should write sth. But sometimes i think, the lyrics itself is already beautiful. I dont want my words "destroy" the mood. Without u, i feel like just me sitting on the lonely island, watching the sea whole day, no more visitor.

Song of this afternoon: 旅行的意義

<旅行的意義> by 陳綺貞

你看過了許多美景 你看過了許多美女

你迷失在地圖上 每一道短暫的光陰
你品嚐了夜的的巴黎 你踏過下雪的北京
你熟記書本裡 每一句你最愛的真理
卻說不出你愛我的原因 卻說不出你欣賞我哪一種表情
卻說不出在什麼場合我曾讓你動心 說不出離開的原因
你累計了許多飛行 你用心挑選紀念品
你搜集了地圖上 每一次的風和日麗
你擁抱熱情的島嶼 你埋葬記憶的土耳其
你流連電影裡美麗的不真實的場景
卻說不出你愛我的原因 卻說不出你欣賞我哪一種表情
卻說不出什麼場合我曾讓你分心 說不出旅行的意義

勉強說出你為我寄出的每封信都是你離開的原因
你離開我 就是旅行的意義

The song of this afternoon is "The meaning of travelling". Bcos ur travelling ma. This is the 1st 陳綺貞 song u sent me. After i heard the whole CD, I told u that i like 旅行的意義 & 還是會寂寞 most. But I dont love her a lot yet. Now, like u, i have become her fans,almost like her every song & will be going to her concert alone (I never go concert alone).

Below is the last e-mail u sent me before ur japan trip. I really like what u wrote. I know u will feel embarrassed to see ur writing, but this is the only thing i have for these 7 days, they are so important to me. I have to put it into my diary:

i know u know, and i know i don't have to say it, but i want to tell u seriously. i really love u. and i will think of u all the time. you would be travelling with me every sec. every min. but this time, it won't be sad, because i know u would be waiting for me. and vice versa, i would be with u every sec. every min these 7 days. and you don't have to be sad. because i want to see u as soon as possible.
I love u.

Song of this morning - 告訴我

<告訴我> by 陳綺貞

看沉默的電話 它什麼都不說
看電視的畫面 它無聲的閃動
看街上的行人 跟我擦肩而過
整個世界太冷漠 我沒有力氣再往前走
看你緊閉的嘴唇 它什麼都不說
看你飄忽的眼神 它無情的閃躲
看你和我的回憶 跟我擦肩而過
你的改變太冷漠 我沒有勇氣大聲地說
告訴我 你不是真的離開我
你也不願這樣的夜裡 把難過留給我
告訴我 你不是真的離開我
你是要懲罰我的愛讓你失去自由
告訴我...

Today u didnt call me. Actually, u cannot call me bcos ur in Japan now. Then i think of this song.

Thursday, February 3, 2005

Song of today: 會不會

<會不會> song & lyrics by 陳綺貞

離開你的視線 卸下我為你偽裝的容顏
紅的唇 白的臉 灰色的午夜
離開你的世界 讓情緒完完整整的渲洩
冷的心 熱的淚 空白的想念
我想今夜就這樣吧 就算孤獨也無所謂
也許有一天你開始後悔 會不會 會不會

Your car played this song while you were driving me to Prince Edward. I like it 1st time i heard it.

This song is right for today's mood & weather.

One evening

Remember one evening, i had a walk at the waterfront park, the sunset was very beautiful. I was watching it, keep having good & bad memories in my head, like playing old movies. While i was enjoying the moment, my friend called.

She: "Where are u now"
(She always ask where i m, may be she doesnt really want to know....but this is her way to start the conversation.)

Me: "At the Waterfront Park"

She: "Alone?"
(Yeah, she always like to know who are with me too, even this is not her purpose of calling me)

Me: "Yes"

She: "What are u doing there?"

Me: "Just want to have a walk and watch the sunset"

She: "Are u crazy?"

Actually she called bcos she wants to have drinks with me. Why she doesnt ask directly in her 1st question? I dislike people asking me lots of questions about where i m going, what i m doing, who i m with, like police asking criminal. (Unless it's my husband)
I m crazy bcos i watch the sunset alone? I always go everywhere alone. I think it's not a must to be accompanied. I dont want to waste time calling people and have to talk (social) with them while we are together, especially to those belong to "different channel". Shopping alone is more efficient, I can leave after i got my targeted items. By the way, I dont need people's opinion on which clothes is better, i can make the decision myself.

Next time this friend called and i m watching sunset again, i will tell her i m with husband and we are walking home together. Sometimes i like to lie, bcos i dont want to explain. I will only explain to someone whom i think he/she can understand.

There's one saying that "People feel lonely not bcos he is alone, it's bcos there are many people around but no one understand him". I have many friends. We can talk. But i put them into different groups owing to the topics we can talk. No one could make me feel really comfortable to tell the truth & everything.

Tuesday, February 1, 2005

我的驕傲無可救藥

Start to hear all the old songs of Cheer Chan, as i will be going to her concert on Feb 28.
I like this one:

我的驕傲無可救藥 我的懶惰也改不掉
我的脾氣控制不了 我都知道 我自己都知道
每次約會我都遲到 其實這也沒有什麼大不了
對你的愛不會減少 你要相信我 是為了你才這麼說
我的驕傲無可救藥 我的懶惰也改不掉
我的脾氣控制不了 我都知道 我自己都知道
每次約會我都遲到 為了討好你 把時間都忘掉
再給我時間讓你知道對你的愛 沒有人能做到
我知道你愛我並不是因為我是個乖女孩
我的習慣也不會因你而更改
我知道你愛我並不是因為我對你的依賴
你的放縱讓我捨不得離開
我的自私無可救藥 你的溫柔我躲不掉
我的借口讓你受不了 我卻知道你的愛不會減少

Plan

I like planning things and stick to the plan. Seeing myself accomplished the goals one by one will give me a great sense of satisfaction. Without goals, i will get lost / getting lazy / do meaningless things. After a while, i will think back and blame myself for wasting time.

Just created a file called 'XXX Financial Statement" in my computer. Of cos it's not a professional statement with balance sheet, Profit & Loss A/C......just a record of my income & expenses. At least i know where my money goes and start to do some savings. This is the 2nd time i try to do it, my previous try was 3 years ago. I hope i can keep up with it this time :)