會呼吸的痛

作詞：姚若龍
作曲：宇珩
主唱：梁靜茹

在東京鐵塔 第一次眺望
看燈火模仿 墜落的星光
我終於到達 但卻更悲傷
一個人完成 我們的夢想

你總說 時間還很多 你可以等我
以前我不懂得 未必明天 就有以後

想念是會呼吸的痛 它活在我身上所有角落
哼你愛的歌會痛 看你的信會痛 連沈默也痛

遺憾是會呼吸的痛 它流在血液中來回滾動
後悔不貼心會痛 恨不懂你會痛 想見不能見最痛

沒看你臉上 張揚過哀傷
那是種多麼 寂寞的倔強
你拆了城牆 讓我去流浪
在原地等我 把自己綑綁

你沒說 你也會軟弱 需要倚賴我
我就裝不曉得 自由移動 自我地過

想念是會呼吸的痛 它活在我身上所有角落
哼你愛的歌會痛 看你的信會痛 連沈默也痛

遺憾是會呼吸的痛 它流在血液中來回滾動
後悔不貼心會痛 恨不懂你會痛 想見不能見最痛

我發誓不再說謊了 多愛你就會抱你多緊的
我的微笑都假了 靈魂像飄浮著 你在就好了

我發誓不讓你等候 陪你做想做的無論什麼
我越來越像貝殼 怕心被人觸碰 你回來那就好了

能重來那就好了

呼吸

作詞：徐世珍　
作曲：陳偉　
編曲：陳偉/Andy
主唱：蔡健雅

呼吸 呼吸沒有你的空氣
夜沒有模糊我自己 和你分離 讓我更清醒

我輕輕呼吸 呼吸這冰冷的空氣
昨天在淚眼中遠去 有過溫柔 我會記得你

照片中依然有那天陽光裡的溫度
手心還握著淡淡的幸褔
那快樂太清楚 才襯出現在的孤獨
不能擁有全部 只擁有回憶 是受苦還是禮物

呼吸 我需要多一點空氣
思念幾乎讓人窒息 沉溺漆黑無聲的海底

我不能呼吸 我需要多一點勇氣
畢竟真心難以忘記 我和寂寞 越來越熟悉

說一句再見是那麼容易 多久才能填滿這冷清
別離的苦 苦在回憶裡還有甜蜜


我慢慢呼吸 呼吸這冰冷的空氣
昨天在淚眼中遠去 有過溫柔 我會記得你

走出了這一場迷霧 陽光還有溫度
每一場離別 當時都倉促 是距離讓人領悟

呼吸 我需要多一點空氣
思念幾乎讓人窒息 沉溺漆黑無聲的海底

說一句再見是那麼容易 多久才能填滿這冷清
別離的苦 苦在回憶裡還有甜蜜

我慢慢呼吸 呼吸沒有你的空氣
夜沒有模糊我自己 和你分離 讓我更清醒

我輕輕呼吸 呼吸這冰冷的空氣
昨天在淚眼中遠去 有過溫柔 回首這風雨
微笑竟然是我 最常想起的表情

Grief

I've heard it said that grief is like an animal to some. With a life of its own and we are at its mercy. I don't know about that. Grief is the stillness of the world the moment my boy left it. It's that quiet rain that never stops falling. They say that grief transforms us. I know it's transforming me, but into what?


From Movie: Incendiary (2008)

Slow Down

1 Oct dinner with H's family.
2 Oct dinner with H's friends.
3 Oct visited HIM in Tseung Kwan O.
4 Oct went to Cheung Chau to celebrate one of my best friend's bday.
5 Oct back to work with a burning and itchy skin.

I really need a long break. But new things come.......I just cant say no.

May be i should try to slow down a bit..............

Swim or Sink

Can i swim to the other side of the river? (Hope it's just a river, not a sea)

I sure i can swim thru, only if you were there waiting for me.

But i cant see you there....

I prefer to sink......sink to the deepest part of your heart.

And not wake up anymore.

Fortune telling

Bcos now i have lots of time left (i used to devote such time to you).....i went to do some stupid fortune telling test:

First Bf:
你們的關係，驚險刺激，預料不到，可以在極短的時間內發生感情，而且發展會像電影一樣，很有戲劇性。
(it's 11 days from knowing till we together. Like movie...may be...)

Husband:
你們會由做朋友開始，大家有共同話題，一起時很好玩，擦出熱熾的火花，發展會很快速。
(quite accurate, from knowing till we together, just 12 days. We had sparks?! Why i dont remember......)

You:
這是一段認真的戀情，你們就對對方很認真，視對方為結婚對象，對這段感情會有很高的期望。
(may be.....bcos you said...... "u are not a good house wife..yes, that's what i think..and i don't mind..may be u would try hard to be a good house wife..but for me, i don't need one. i think u are a good wife, just i can imagine i would like u to be my wife...u would do things for me..not house work..may be little things...housework..u don't have to do lah....i mean if u are with me.")

The Butterfly Effect

Watched "The Butterfly Effect" tonite. The ending is sad.....but i dont expect a happy ending anyway.

When i searched this movie on internet....i found a more sad ending from Director's cut. Personally i like this one most:



There's another open ending i like. But then i think....their destiny is to separate. Whenever they are together, bad things happened to the girl. So.....Director's cut is still the best. He shouldnt been born.

If i were the guy, i will do the same.