愛

五歲的小寶説：媽媽我會錫你錫到地球爆炸𠴱日，或者直至我死個日。

其實，我都一様。

未夠好

放假。去港島區辦㸃事。

明知帶小寶去會增加消費，兼拖低效率，但還是想他在我身邊。

狂風暴雨。坐的士。扭抱、廁所去完又去，喊肚餓，都是意料中事。

在吃cup cake 的地方坐下，他正想把我那份蛋糕也吃掉，大概自己又餓又累，脾氣一觸即發。

"對唔住，我唔記得你鍾意玫瑰花，我冇心架，sorry......"

難得他自動自覺地道歉，即時心軟。

在圖書館閒逛期間收到公司電話，需即時處理公事。

小寶在我心情惡劣之際扭坐子彈𨋢，去完廁所馬虎地穿回褲子，站在廁所開門位被開門的人撞到.......為什麼他總是把我的話當耳邊風？忍不住又駡他一頓，叫他向推門進來的人道歉，他都照做了。

回程坐的士，開車不久他就睡著了。

看著他熟睡小臉，想起他才不過5歲，是我太嚴格了嗎？剛才竟忘了問他痛不痛。

在很多方面，他的確未夠好，作為母親的我其實也一様。

生日

母：生日打風有冇唔開心？
子：咁啱啫。

其實最唔開心係我，早知請假。

Love Actually 2

未脫離

澳門同事忽然問我近況。

我答： 好忙。又病😭😭

有點懷疑他聽到了什麼風聲。

倒下

讓醫生看完，又答了幾個問題，她也忍不住搖頭嘆息。
開了7天葯，說晚上吃可讓我睡好㸃。
不知是否太晚吃。晚上不覺睡得沉，但隔天早上卻昏昏欲睡。
H說我該走。媽說我該留。我仍在去與留之間徘徊。

為母則強

Tonight is the third time I fly India. 

Unless I resign or pregnant, I sure I will fly there more frequently from now on......they mention about getting me a multiple visa. 

My son insisted to accompany me to airport. He promised he won't cry. 

When it came to the time to say good bye, he started rubbing his eyes. I quickly let him go and his father also quickly took his hand to the toy shop. 

He looked back once. 

I looked back twice, until they are completely out of my sight, till I can't see anything. 

This new job is eating my time, my health, my feelings. 

After the crazy hard work in the past few months, the Beijing project is almost settled now. Got sometime to watch "The Walking Dead" lately.

Enid: Are you ok?

Maggie: No I am not. But I will.