路口

歌手：蔡健雅
作曲：柯貴民
填詞：陳綺貞
編曲：鍾興民

就當作這十一年的　光陰蹉跎
我不再溫習每次　深情的交錯
我們不過是　各自轉動的星球
擁抱著　永恆的空洞

就當作你的離去　起不了作用
我的心還完整的　像一個黑洞
深深地　把你吸附在　無邊宇宙
一抬起頭　就能夠看見你
依然為我閃爍

走不出的路口
一個人　一瞬間　淹沒在　人群中
寂寞的路口
一個人　一轉眼　走進了　回憶漩渦＃

在爭吵的時候　也能從你
最輕柔的手　進入夢中

在冰冷的時候　你的溫柔
總是能燃燒　我熾熱的感受

寧願不曾醒來　你就是我
生命中一個　最深邃的夢
你是我生命中　轉彎的路口

D&G - Light Blue

A gift for you. I love you.

輪迴

「個日同阿X講電話﹐佢問起你﹐我話你應該好快無事。 一雞死一雞鳴呀嘛！」

「痴線！邊有咁多雞！我都老啦。」

「我同佢講﹐我都知你想做隻雞好耐！」

「無可能！我地係兄妹感情......」

「我點知你地呀！」

「如果要再鍾意人﹐真係慘過輪迴。因為我仲帶住前世記憶.........」

You don't look as dumb as you look, do you?

Nothing last forever

Happiness wont last forever.....so as pain.
But pain may last longer though.

開車

作詞：李志清　作曲：李志清　編曲：黃中岳　演唱：阿桑


上　上一次的快樂是多久了　
你　你走了我的計算變差了
微 笑在我臉上　又被僵住了　
那是第幾次又說起你了

開　一個人開車是最寂寞的　
但是別　別扭開收音機來聽聽歌
因 為有些歌曲是很傷人的　
太容易就會　想起你了

如果那天病了　約會換了　
我們就不遇上了
或許就能微笑幸福靠著　
比你更好的另一個
有時愛像開車危險又快樂　遇上紅燈就停了
勉強是不對的我們都知道的　
差別的是誰會先下車

傷　再傷的傷口都會痊癒的　
難　再難的難過也能走過的
一個人的下午　也是美好的　
只是聊天的人又少了一個

Plan for Weekend

1. 禮儀師の奏鳴曲

2. Cinema Paradiso

3. Do some exercises?

4. Sleep before 11:00pm

5. Get the book for my father

6. Have sex (sigh......)

7. 清理那堆紙

8. Try to escape from seeing relatives from Indonesia

9. Dry clean some coats

10. Pay some bills

11. Fix the watch

12. Iron clothes for the next week

13. ................



Enough.

回憶

曲：小兵
詞：林潤明

(回憶 在時間裡沉澱) (時間 在回憶中消失) (觸感 在重複中麻木)
(我們 在麻木中重複) (愛情 在指縫間承諾) (指縫 在愛情下交纏)
(沒有在擁有中掙扎) (擁有 在掙扎裡回憶) (回憶 在時間裡沉澱....)
穿著 雪白而空蕩你的襯衫 躺在 空蕩而雪白我們的地上 嚼著
重複而無聊的口香糖 跟你 無聊而重複地跑到街上 給我
(假如時間是一條弧線)給你(我們將在周圍的另一邊再開始)
開始一段結束 結束一段開始 沒有我 沒有你 沒有天 沒有地
(在天和地之間你早就說了 我們本來就是一個遊戲)

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回憶也算是一種距離
在回憶與現實之間的他/她
無論如何
總有一段距離

在回憶裏
所有的不完美
都變得完美

國境之南

留下來.............
或者，
我跟你走。

他們說

朋友說.........

「你皮膚好了很多，很有光澤。」

(這真是一個美麗的誤會，實情是我早上沒時間洗面。)



「你好像比之前好看，水腫全沒有了。」

「喂，我日日都哭，莫說水腫，我都快脫水了。」

(所謂好看應該是迴光返照，一個月後的我越來越殘......)



媽媽說.......

「你好像瘦了。」



媽媽說什麼都是對的。

拒絕

男女間的事有時實在很微妙

你若沒有在適當的時侯拒絕

以後就會忽然發現根本沒有拒絕的機會了





《大人物》古龍

沒事

「你這麼下去不是辦法。」



「只要過了今晚就會沒事了。」



「你總是說過了今晚就會沒事﹐你昨天晚上是怎麼過的？如果你過得了昨晚，今晚就不會在這兒了......」

星期六的深夜

作詞：王力宏　作曲：王力宏

星期六晚上　那兒都不想去　也無法入睡
看著電視機　持續在發呆　喝了七分醉
閉上了眼睛　試著不想你　但已來不及
忘了如何讓眼淚　停止流下
還好沒人看見(到) 沒人會說話

星期六深夜　我想起了你
沒什麼特別　只是回憶
你讓我自由　我很感激
星期六深夜　喔~~
永遠不會有任何人能代替你

這就是遺憾的滋味
陪著我形影不離
明天我會面帶微笑
但無法忘記你

讓我自由　我很感激
星期六　喔~Yeah

永遠不會有任何人能代替你

發奮

打開.關掉

你把我打開



但忘了把我關掉

流沙

曲：陶喆 | 詞：娃娃

並不是真的路過而已
也不是真的不會想你
全都不是真的是騙自己
其實還愛你愛著你
我以為我早想清楚 不由自主恍恍惚惚
又走回頭路 再看一眼有過的幸福
愛情好像流沙我不掙扎
隨它去吧 我不害怕
愛情好像流沙 心裡的牽掛
不願放下 OH BABY 讓我這樣吧
愛情好像流沙 我不說話
等待黑暗 讓淚能落下
愛情好像流沙 明知該躲它
無法自拔 OH BABY 是我太傻
是一再的做 一再的錯不由我
我一步一步一步一步 慢慢走向流沙

I miss you

"do u know what i think when i miss u? i would imagine i'm standing next to you in your office, you are very busy, and i'm just watching u, may be kiss ur cheek or neck to support u. then i would feel better...

anyway, i mean i want to kiss u when u are working...so that u can feel i'm there for u......u are not alone...i accompany u."

May be you are doing this now. May be you are not.

But i would imagine, and this is the only thing I can do.

Words

Got this from a friend today:



就算是 Believe 中間還是有個lie

就算是 Friend 最後還是會有個end

就算是 Lover 最後還是會over

就算是 forget 也要先get才行





Suddenly....i aware that the 1st two alphabets of my name are the last two alphabets of your name.

Finally.......

Thanks to internet, finally i "remember" the movie you planned to watch with me on our last friday.

黑澤明《影武者》

原諒我

Went to seaside with friends last sunday.

While we were waiting the boat to pick us up....i heard a very touching karaoke song sang by some young ladies. i only remember the lyrics with "原諒我"...........

I was trying to search with these 3 words on internet today.....i found the song!

Although the song itself is not very relevant to our story.......some of the lyrics makes me sad...........

It's a good song anyway. And it's time to add some new songs to my ipod....by myself.




歌手：蕭敬騰
作曲：阿沁(FIR)
填詞：阿沁(FIR),陳天佑,吳易緯


請不要分了以後還記得 親吻過的承諾
你的永久 已不屬於我
默默低頭 那時我 很多話梗在喉嚨
你的笑你的快樂不是我 愛太多想太多
我能感受 他比我適合
愛放了手 我偽裝冷漠 比你先說分手
請原諒我 原諒我不成熟
不愛你是藉口 好讓你離開我
請原諒我 好想自私將你佔有
一個寂寞就給我承受 換你過更好的生活
請不要分了以後還記得 親吻過的承諾
你的永久 已不屬於我
默默低頭 那時我 很多話梗在喉嚨
你的笑你的快樂不是我 愛太多想太多
我能感受 他比我適合
愛放了手 我偽裝冷漠 比你先說分手
請原諒我 原諒我不成熟
不愛你是藉口 好讓你離開我
請原諒我 好想自私將你佔有
一個寂寞就給我承受 換你過更好的生活
愛過恨過哭過也笑過
親吻過你的脆弱
其實我比誰都要懦弱
原諒我 必須假裝愛錯
別讓時間倒流 我怕說不出口
原諒我 沒有解釋太多心痛
別無所求徹底忘了我 愛原來要捨得
我 難過
我 才懂

A Writer

There was a writer I love a lot once said:

about wearing mask..that is me..i used to think i wear mask to face people. people can't see the real me. everyone see a happy me, don't think i feel inferior. don't think i'm pessimistic.....and later i don't even know if i'm really happy or just pretending...may be it's part of me already, to be happy...but i sometimes would cry with no reason...i can be at home alone, and feel depressed, and listen to some songs, and cry. (15.7.2004)

This writer always speaks my mind. And.........

Like most great people in the world, he died early.

Fanboys (2008)

Watched this movie last saturday night. I like Star Wars, Star Trek....but not really a fans. I can like a lot of things.

I think the trailer is better than the movie. Most of the funniest parts are in the trailer already. May be it's also because we watched the trailer together.



Trailer:
http://www.apple.com/trailers/weinstein/fanboys/

去，不去

World's oldest person dies in Los Angeles at 115

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20090911/ap_on_re_us/us_obit_oldest_person


I hope my parents will live that long. But I dont want it myself.
What a selfish thought........

The other day, I learnt that my colleague's uncle committed suicide. My colleague said, the family try to believe that he has been to a better world. Because this is his choice. If people dont want to die but they die finally, this is sad.

About making choices....we actually dont know the exact consequences before making any choices. Only dead ppl know what happened after death. What if they find out death is not just sleeping? What if the world of death is much worse than the reality?

Sometimes, having no choices, is better than regretting at making the wrong choice.

My rules of making choices:

(1) I wont regret after making any choices
(2) If I dont know what choices to make, I do nothing

Somebody

"i give u a lyrics of an english song..it's called 'somebody'...it's like the role model for me and my friends when we were in secondary school...we listen to british band at that time."


Somebody by Depeche Mode


I want somebody to share

Share the rest of my life

Share my innermost thoughts

Know my intimate details

Someone who'll stand by my side

And give me support

And in return

She'll get my support

She will listen to me

When I want to speak

About the world we live in

And life in general

Though my views may be wrong

They may even be perverted

She'll hear me out

And won't easily be converted

To my way of thinking

In fact she'll often disagree

But at the end of it all

She will understand me

I want somebody who cares

For me passionately

With every thought and

With every breath

Someone who'll help me see things

In a different light

All the things I detest

I will almost like

I don't want to be tied

To anyone's strings

I'm carefully trying to steer clear of

Those things

But when I'm asleep

I want somebody

Who will put their arms around me

And kiss me tenderly

Though things like this

Make me sick

In a case like this

I'll get away with it

Duplicity (2009)

After you watched “Duplicity”, you said, “I miss you when I see you”

This should be where you quoted from:

Claire: You have any idea how frustrating it’s to know you are the only man who could ever possibly understand me. Look, I know who you are, and I love you anyway.

Ray: I think about you all the time. I think about you even when you're with me. I look at you, I can't stop looking at you. I look at you, and I think, "That woman... That woman knows who I am and loves me anyway.

紅河村

人們說你就要離開村莊　
我們將懷念你的微笑　
你的眼精比太陽更明亮　
照耀在我們的心中　

請走來坐在我們的身旁　
不要離別得這樣匆忙　
想一想你走後我的痛苦　
還有那熱愛你的朋友　

The Busiest Day

Reading those e-mails you sent to me 5 years ago.....

"it's always like that, when i'm sick, or tired, and it's the busiest day."

三十日

逐晚倒數　為見你準備
願你快點　又與我一起
寂寥足足一個月　 由電話減少距離
而偏偏竟不知　 怎說起

是太想念你　超過了預期
只想可擁著你　 然後吻你　讓你驚喜

由這一分鐘　我一生　就只有你
明日縱使不堪　阻不到我用心愛你
讓我終於都明瞭　明白你比生死重要
連話語　也沒法盛載得起

I’ll give my life to be near you in every way
For I have nothing left to be here on this Earth today
讓我終於不動搖　這改變因你
原諒我卻試過傷害你

逐秒擴張　惦記你滋味
合上眼睛　像與你一起
為何分開一個月　如在孤島給隔離
尋不到飛得走的客機

是太想念你　超過了預期
張開手保護你　遊歷世界　讓你驚喜

由這一分鐘　我一生　就只有你
明日縱使不堪　阻不到我用心愛你
讓我終於都明瞭　明白你比生死重要
連話語　也沒法盛載得起

I’ll spend my life here beside you in every way
For I have nothing left to be here on this Earth today
讓我終於不動搖　這改變因你
如若你欠信我的力氣

我唱這首歌　為你

頭痛

個頭好痛
為什麼不是心痛
一想為什麼
個頭更痛
算了

又想…….不如去跑步
記得以前中學聖經堂
老師問有什麼方法可停止不應有的慾念
有位男同學答
最好去跑步或洗一個冷水浴
依稀記得有同學笑問
他是否有洗冷水浴和跑步的習慣
(不過也可能是我當時想問而沒有問的問題)

我的頭痛問題和慾念全沒有關係
只是潛意識覺得跑步可令人不再胡思亂想
總好過坐著什麼也不做

想到這裡
才記起雙腳剛被新鞋刮損
算了

When the march ends, the memories begin......

Will I see you again?

鐵達時廣告

短歌行. 曹操

對酒當歌，人生幾何，
譬如朝露，去日苦多。
慨當以慷，憂思難忘，
何以解憂，惟有杜康。
青青子衿，悠悠我心，
但為君故，沈吟至今。

Seven Daffodils by The Brothers Four

I may not have a mansion, I haven't any land
Not even a paper dollar to crinkle in my hands
But I can show you morning on a thousand hills
And kiss you and give you seven daffodils.

I do not have a fortune to buy you pretty things
But I can weave you moonbeams for necklaces and rings
And I can show you morning on a thousand hills
And kiss you and give you seven daffodils.

Oh, seven golden daffodils all shining in the sun
To light our way to evening when our day is done
And I will give you music and a crust of bread
And a pillow of piny boughs to rest your head.

A pillow of piny boughs to rest your head...

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Suddenly have this song in mind. I dont know why i always like old songs. Of cos i also listen to new songs....but usually, i like it more when it becomes "old", i.e. when nobody use the song as ringtone and popular in karaoke.....so it becomes sth uniquely owned by myself. I remember you have similar thoughts as well.

一生中最愛

歌手：譚詠麟
作曲：伍思凱
填詞：向雪懷
編曲：盧東尼


如果癡癡的等某日 終於可等到一生中最愛
誰介意你我這段情 每每碰上了意外不清楚未來
何曾願意 我心中所愛 每天要孤單看海

寧願一生都不說話 都不想講假說話欺騙你
留意到你我這段情 你會發覺間隔著一點點距離
無言地愛 我偏不敢說 說一句想跟你一起

如真 如假 如可分身飾演自己
會將心中的溫柔獻出給你唯有的知己
如癡 如醉 還盼你懂珍惜自己
有天即使分離我都想你 我真的想你

如果癡癡的等某日 終於可等到一生中最愛

最愛是誰

在世間尋覓愛侶
尋獲了但求共聚
然而共處半生都過去
我偏偏又後悔

別了他原為了你
留住了愛亦留住了罪
誰料伴你的心今已碎
卻有他在夢裡

為何離別了 卻願再相隨
為何能共對 又平淡似水
問如何下去 為何猜不對
何謂愛 其實最愛只有誰

任每天如霧過去
沉默裡任寒風吹
誰人是我一生中最愛
答案可是絕對

為何離別了 卻願再相隨
為何能共對 又平淡似水
問如何下去 為何猜不對
何謂愛
誰讓我找到愛的證據

最愛的你

歌手：譚詠麟
作曲：鈴木
填詞：林敏聰
編曲：Jazz Chan


星　猶如天空的小斑點
在半空中　在你的肩膊
每晚　燦爛明亮地沉默地笑
凝視每夜　凝視每段愛情

星　沒有一顆不愛閃照
在你身邊　誰會不深愛你
最愛的你　軟弱無力地凝望著我
陪伴過渡　讓愛過濾著每日

每一深夜　雲飄湧的清晨
能擁有親愛的你　曾是　我的生趣
每一深夜　雲飄湧的清晨
仍是會回味到　這份愛戀

回到深秋　重返到你身邊
回到那秋天　能有你的每一刻
星　請可否停不暫不閃
讓往日　重新再開始過

I wish i knew how to quit you

Busy with work today. Serious headache. A bit retarded. That's why I worked till 8:00pm.....tired of cos. Not really the work make me tired.....it's kind of emotionally tired.....i guess i have been thinking of you too much.



I had dinner alone. I dont actually mind to be by myself, i even went to "yam cha" by myself yesterday. But the feeling of alone....is very bad. As usual, i put on my ipod when eating......i kind of want to separate myself from the ppl around me. I dont want to hear them talking.



Back home, go to my sina a/c......i dont use this a/c anymore after i used gmail. I try to move all the e-mails you sent me from this a/c to the yahoo one. It's a tough job. Bcos we exchanged 3-4 e-mails a day, and the subject are mainly re:/fwd/ no subject.......i dont know what i m sending. Finally i have to read them all and try to give them a subject name.



I told myself i will read only one of our old e-mail every day, today i have read 20+..............



I wish I knew how to quit you.

不如我們從頭來過

春光乍洩裡..."不如我們從頭來過..."

如果可以從頭來過，你會想在那裡從頭來過，又想怎樣從頭來過

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那天下午我請了病假。

在看醫生途中﹐電話響了幾聲便中斷。

你終於打電話來了。

「你找我?」

「我想聽妳的聲音。」

我們很自然地又像以前一樣說話。

無論之前發生什麼事﹐已不再重要。

我曾不止一次硬起心腸說：「這是最後一次了。」

這次你什麼都沒有說。

但事實清楚告訴我﹐這真是最後一次了。

重頭來過的只是我。

不是我們。