Friday

Dinner with F on Friday nite, we went to a coffee shop which i always like to go. I dont drink coffee at all, but i like the smell and atmosphere. We talked a lot, after i came back from washroom, i found a paper writing Mr. Chan's phone no. on my seat. F thought it's scary. I comforted her, i told her that he's not Mr. Chan. Then we went to see the bridesmaid dress, we will try and confirm the dress next monday.

She asked,'Is it ok that you dont go to his funeral?'
I said, ' I have decided not to go, i dont even want to pass by the building'
'Will he come to find us on that day?'
'No, he will need to entertain lots of ppl on that day, and he knows i will visit him later this month, a lazy person like him wont cross the sea la'

She also asked me what songs she should use for the march in. Personally i like "Beauty and the Beast". But i also suggested "A whole new world". Later my ipod played X Japan's "Sperion", i think the beginning melody is ok, i promised that i will send her all songs by this week. Oh, i also promised to prepare the rundown and schedule for her this week......

Although she already assigned someone as the Maid of Honor due to family reason, she asked me to be her 近身侍女 whole day bcos she doesnt trust the Maid of Honor. F also thinks my advice is more "trustworthy" bcos we seem to have similar taste. In fact, we dont have similar taste, i only know what she wants and try to advise sth she would like. Of cos, i will add my personal advice if i think her ideas are too terrible.

It reminds me of what you have said - sth like...'Many ppl feel good to talk to me, but i only feel good when talk to a few ppl'

I miss you so much. I m talking less and less now......